Recently, I've been really busy. After my results was the Lunar New Year. My Lunar New Year was pretty good. I cried during the 1st day of New Year but not as bad compared to last year. LOL! It's always about my studies they asked that would make me cry. I don't know why. I guess I really see education as a very important thing in my life. It's like, without it I will die. I guess I've been giving myself a lot of stress when it comes to academic. Argh! Anyway, my collection this year was pretty good. I seriously never expect that. I thought, because of the recession going on, my collection would be worse than last year. However, that was not the case. Geex. I did more visiting than last year and collected lots of red packets. Woohoo!
I've done lots of catching up with my friends lately. Lay Leng and Isabel were back in Singapore. So, I arranged a day out with them, together with Adeline. Melissa was supposed to join us but she couldn't make it at the last minute. The craziest thing we did was to squeeze into a small machine that's supposed to take passport photos. Okay, we didn't manage to get all 4 of our faces in the photo but there were still 4 of us. Ahahas. We were all squash like sardines. It was so packed in there that we could hardly breathe. I even had to crawl out after taking our picture. LOL! It was hilarious but it was so much of fun that we had. It's a pity that the guys didn't join us. I couldn't get most of them and Melissa said to have a girl's gathering. Oh well, there's always next time. Hopefully. Ahahas.
I met Lay Leng and Isabel again for dinner, as the day after, Isabel would be leaving Singapore. Although, it was quite a short while but we had lots of fun. I also met up with Steven and Cheryl for dinner at Vivo city. Cheryl and I wore our geek spectacles. Okay, I look very different with it and it was my first time wearing such glasses out. LOL! I met up with Wei Xin for shopping; Kai Xin at IMM for lunch; Cheryl for shopping. Etc... I also spent most of my time at home watching dramas online. Ahahas. Now that I'm so free, I can watch as many as I could. Lalala!~

These few days, I've been feeling really frustrated. There have been lots of thoughts going through my mind. I don't know which path to choose. Argh! I'm posted to Republic Poly, Technology and Arts Management. Initially, I wanted to appeal to Nanyang Poly for Multimedia and Infocom because I didn't like how Republic's system works. But, after much consideration, I gave up the thought of appealing because it's very stupid to appeal for something which I show no interest at all and for the school system. I also didn't really like the course that I've been posted to. It's not something that I want to do. But, I guess it is way much better compared to Multimedia and Infocom. At least, I show little interest in Arts? Ahahas.
My application to Murdoch College had been approved and I haven't accepted nor reject the offer yet. I'm amazed that my O level result got me a place for the April intake which they claim it's a more advance studies compared to the February intake. I wanted to just try my luck of appealing since February intake was quite impossible as it would be really rush. Now that I'm being approved for the April intake, I don't know what to do. I don't know if I should risk it or take the safe route. Going to Aussie to study has always been something that I'm dying to do. I thought that if I flunk my O's badly again, I would definitely go to Aussie for College.
I used to wanting to go poly badly. I worked really hard for it. But, now that I can go poly, I don't have the heart to do so anymore. I fear a lot, of this and of that. I've wasted 3 years on my O's and I really don't feel like wasting more time. Going to Aussie is definitely a risk but a faster route. However, poly is the safest route. What if I can't make it in College? Or, what if I make it in College but I don't in University. Then, I'll be left with nothing. If I complete my studies in poly, I would be having a diploma. In which, that would be a different story then. Sigh. I really need to do some major thinking. Hopefully, God will clear my troubled thoughts and guide me through the way. I'm just so desperately in need of God's guidance. Sigh.

Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

[Lingz- Signing Off~]