Last Sunday, 26/08/2007, I went back to church. Mr. Ng invited me back as he said that he have not seen me for really long and wanted to catch up. However, this year, I've got classes to attend on Sundays. So, I rejected his invitation. But, he was pretty persistent. He actually told me to skip my Sunday class to attend this Special Service. Can you imagine it?!? A teacher who's teaching his ex-student bad?!? Ahahas. But, I'm glad that I skip my class for the service. =)
It's been so long since I last went back to church. At least, 2 years I supposed. When I first stepped into the church, a sense of guilt overwhelmed me as I thought how filthy I am; with all the sins and for falling away. But, when I meet those brothers and sisters, my guilt just turned into joy. Some people may think that I treat this church like a Hotel. I come and I go as when I like. But, the actual fact is that Central Christian Church is like my Home. It's the first church that I attended. It is there, where I learnt a lot about life; people who are suffering worse than me. It is also there, that seems like a new life was given to me. It changed my life, for the better. When I was going through my downs, it was the brothers and sisters in the church who helped me pull through the obstacles that I was going through. They are always standing by me. I’m really glad to meet such awesome brothers and sisters there. They are always in my mind, so unforgettable. A church, that I can feel a sense of peace and presence there. Not fear!
The teens who I know back then have all been promoted to the Campus Ministry. I thought Mr. Ng is still a teen-worker in the Teens Ministry but he left last November for another Ministry. Therefore, I sat with the Teen-workers, Jessica and Wai Cheng, during the service, while Mr. Ng sat at his own Ministry. I sure did learn a lot from the service. Every service I go, it's a new lesson learnt.
After service, it was time for fellow-shipping. Ahahas. I didn't get the chance to talk to Mr. Ng. He was no where to be seen. I couldn't find Ms. Teo too! Hence, I talked to Wai Cheng, Patrice, Mariyln Jie Jie and a few others. I had a nice and emotional talk with Marilyn Jie Jie. Somehow, she really can understand the situation that I'm in. She said that, I'm like at the top of the hill. I dare not take a leap of faith or a step forward. God is just below me. I can see Him but I just don't have the courage to go down to God; to seek for God. I lack of confidence. Which, it's so utterly true. Like, I've always mentioned that not having confidence is like losing half of the battle. She said that she was like me and I know that she had gone through a lot. In fact, a lot of brothers and sisters have gone through a lot. Perhaps, due to our similarities, we could relate to each other pretty well. I'm so glad that besides Mr. Ng and Ms. Teo, there's still Marilyn and a few others who I can relate to. I simply love them so much! Hehz =P
This year, it's like there's a major change in me. I'm starting to be more open. I actually met my net friends alone! Oh, how daring I could be. This had never happened before. I am or rather I was really afraid to meet strangers and I don't know what has gotten into me! Perhaps, my circle of friends is really small. Therefore, I would like to meet more new people. I'm 18 and I'm still single! I don't want to waste my youth. Ahahas. =P
Well, it been more than 2 years since I last attend church and so many things have happened during my times of disappearance. Learning about David kor kor who has been fighting for his life due to cancer, it really saddens me. It was just so unexpected. But, I'm really glad that he's in his recovery state now. God protected him and will always be with him. Everything is alright and under-control now. God will always be with us if we believe in Him! Marilyn Jie Jie said that, perhaps, God put David Kor Kor through this so that everyone could learn from him. He did not give up but stay strong and faithful to God. That, our problems are nothing compared to David Kor Kor where he had to fight to survive. Everything happens for a reason and God has great plans for us! Both, Lubin Kor Kor and Jasmine Jie Jie went overseas to further their studies. Lubin Kor Kor went to the States while Jasmine Jie Jie went to Australia. Manz! I sure do miss those times when we, Marilyn, Jasmine and David, would meet up and go down to church together. I really hope that Yukina and Pei Yi Jie Jie are doing great. I miss them too! Everything sure did change, but, for the better. =)
Oh, I saw Jessica and Pei Ling and they are pregnant. I heard that Corine's pregnant too! All 3 at the same time, Wow! Jessica told me that she's carrying a baby girl. Aww... So sweet! I would love to have a baby girl in the distant future too. Having a girl is not so troublesome lah. There's so many pretty clothing for the girls and I can doll her up. Also, girls are usually sticky towards the mother. Haha!~
Alright, after fellow-shipping, I join Marilyn and the rest for lunch. While eating, I was talking to one of the sisters. Janette, if I remembered her name correctly. Ahahas. We were talking about the other churches that we've went and we both agreed that Central Christian Church is still the best! It just feels so much like a home. A sweet and peaceful home where there are such lovely brothers and sisters around who are always so encouraging and fun to be with. I sure did have a great time in church! =)


Today, I met Ms. Teo, Marilyn and Jeanette at Vivo City for Bible study. I truly learnt a lot. Like, why God created us? How do we seek God? How awesome is God? Etc... I really appreciate them for coming all the way down and to take the time off to study the Bible with me. We shared quite a lot too. They are really awesome sisters and I sure did had a great time with them. Upon studying the Bible, I thought of the first Bible study I had with Patrice. It was and still is really nice to know more about God! It seems as though as I'm one step close to God. Amen!~


[Lingz- Signing Off~]